I awoke one morning to check my email and instead I read my account had an "accountability" error and it could not be found. Really? My website was replaced and my email was non-existent. After a very long day of agonizing over what happened, I was exhausted. And I'm pretty sure my frantic behavior wore out my sweet husband, a seasoned techie.
One of my problems, we discovered at the end of the day was that my account(ing) was not up to date and I was clueless about how that happened. I sensed God was shutting this whole thing down and with a megaphone in His mighty hand was telling me all my stuff was swept aways because I was getting a clean slate in preparation for something new. I was sensing to completely let go of my leadership of the totally devoted marketplace ministry, too. Yep. One thing was pressing was I needed to focus on writing totally devoted 4!
A new season perhaps? Certainly experiencing more life lessons and pruning so I can bear more fruit. "...every branch that does bear fruit He prunes so that it will even be more fruitful" (John 15:2).
By the grace of God I have not been swept away with my old stuff, I knew where to run for shelter and guidance -- to my Father in heaven. I prayed. Lots. I prayed and read and studied and prayed some more. I knew He loved me last week during my sweeping away and He loves me now. I am HIS child. Besides, I believe in the sovereignty of God so I knew He was taking away something to give me something better. He knows me. He knows my heart. He knows my heart's desire. (Psalm 139 says so.) So I was confident this was not a mean trick but a message to me that He was going to give me my heart's desire...His way.
During this time a Sunday PM class was offered at our church that intrigued me and I signed up. Our beloved Pastor Doug Mulkey was leading it and I thought the study material, Follow Me by David Platt, would be biblically strong and challenging. I was hungry. God had my attention.
I signed up and away we went! Powerful stuff and very encouraging. The first chapter discussed the calling of Peter and his brother Andrew. "They were casting a net into the lake, for they were fishermen. "Come follow Me," Jesus said, and I will make you fishers of men. At once they left their nets and followed Him." (Matthew 4:19-20).
Wow. They left all their worldly possessing and followed Jesus! Willingly! Immediately! Hmmm. I think that's what "deny yourself" means in Luke 9:23: "If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and follow me." There it is again!
Also during my pruning, the Son of God Movie Trailer was played countless times on several networks. I was excited to see it. I was thrilled to listen to Producers Mark Burnett and Roma Downey -- on several networks -- describe the making of the film. They told amazing stories and testimonies between showing film clips. And then they showed the clip of the meeting of Peter and Jesus by the lake. The link to the trailer is below. What stunned me personally was in the first 30 seconds of the trailer the script has Jesus meeting Peter at the water's edge. Jesus says, "Come with me [FOLLOW ME]" and Peter says,"What are we going to do?" Jesus said, "We are going to change the world." BOOM! [emphasis mine.] Yes! The spreading of the gospel can change the world!
God was speaking to my heart. I wasn't sure of what He wanted me to do after my experience last week. I knew I was going to have to pray and '"be still and know He is God"(Psalm 46:10) until He showed me. Well, He showed me through our Follow Me study at church and the movie trailer, specifically.
All for HIS glory!
"Glorify the LORD with me; let us exalt HIS name together!"