In my life's journey I seem to bump into my own walls of pride, self-centered worry, and unbelief. It's stupid on my part because I know the truth about my Savior -- that He will continue to love me unconditionally and always take tender care of me!
But, oh that flesh! That stinkin' worldly flesh that loves the world and worldly ways! Self. Selfie. Me! Me! Me! Selfie-ness! I want. I need. What about me???????
When I struggle I know to go to God and His word and ask for forgiveness and help in overcoming this "selfie-ness!" I've also learned along the way to save a lot of time and ask God, "What is the root of my problem? What really is my deeply rooted source of this?" He always reveals it to me and usually right away. It's rough sometimes but He's still pruning and shaping me. My problem always comes down to SELF. My Self.
I read in Oswald Chambers' renown devotional, My Utmost for His Highest, (January 15), about having a 'white funeral.' He writes, "No one experiences complete sanctification without going through a "white funeral" -- the burial of the old life... a death with only one resurrection--a resurrection into the life of Jesus Christ. Nothing can defeat a life like this. It has oneness with God for only one purpose--to be a witness for Him."
Chambers continues, "You cannot die or go to your funeral in a mood of excitement. Death means you stop being. You must agree with God and stop being the intensely striving kind of Christian you have been." Ouch. Yep. Sisters, he's nailed us there! We Sisters do a whole lotta striving don't we? Okay, is it just me? Whatever! We really need to stop it. It's not what our Father wants for us. There is a way out of an intensely striving lifestyle. But we already know that, don't we. There is just stuff we are not ready to give up.
I saw the following quote somewhere on the web and wrote it down: "If you are feeling stressed or overwhelmed, could it be that you are trying to hold on to your old life while you put on your new life in Christ?"
Wow. That quote sounds like Matthew 6:24: "No one can serve two masters. Either you will hate the one and love the other , or you will be devoted to the one and despise the other." That's exhausting!
We know our Sweet Lord does not leave us alone in our struggles! He always has help and healing for whatever ails us.
"If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given to you. This is to my Father's glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples." (John 15:7-8).
It's my prayer that all of us who are the intensely striving kind of Christians will have our own spiritual "white funeral" where we finally decide to die to self so we can be free to live abundantly for the glory of God.
I love you, my sisters.
"Glorify the LORD with me; let us exalt His name together!"